Mood: Better
Song of Choice: “Here I am” by ???((some local band from Columbus)(The very simple Lyrics on bottom)
Topic: Trials

You know I read Peter said...he's got a good point...but I'm more of a dooer then a waiter...I've never had a well of patience. Why couldn't it be like this: God comes to you on eh...say 16-18 birthday whenever He deems you ready and then He goes "You will have to save the land of your birth! Take up arms and defeat something!" I don't know I mean look for me I want a clear cut line you live you get "happiness" not right away but you know sometime in your life, you die well hel you're dead but at least you got to try I don't know. I got a warriors spirit I was born in the wrong era...grrr...I shoulda been born some other time. ::Sigh:: Oh well maybe it's just that I haven't been sleeping well...to many dreams...

Well my friends how about another angle on the reality thing :)
From the Book of Games!!!

Unfortuneately we never know if we will find the one perfect person and even if we do the conditions may not be right. i think thats were the concept of faith comes in, the belief that we will find someone and that all the things before will be okay because then that person well be there for us to hold us when we cry not in an effort to get us to stop crying put for the sole purpose of letting them cry whats the purpose of giving the shoulder to lean on if the purpose is to silence the tears? let it all pour out and in the end that person will still be there holding you supporting you...

With all the things that life throws it is the other the helps pull you through..who lits the way and lifts the blinder from your eyes. while it may take some time to find this person the wait well be worth it so long as you don't take their luv for granted and cherish it always for in it could easily be taken away from you and thus should live up every happy moment for as long as you can hold hands whenever possible, look into the eyes of the other kiss whenever you damn well please. in terms of luv there has always been this concept of 50-50 and last year one of my teachers give his theory of the concept 90-10 well here's my concept 100-0, when you find this one perfect being you must give all of you even the parts of yourself you don't like be it either emotional intellectual or physical and they do the same they are yours and you are theirs...thiers to hold cherish love laugh when you stup your toe and to kiss it to make it feel better. this feeling is worth a wait it may not last forever however well at least the phsycial aspect as one may die before another but nothing physical can truly last forever but the essecne of what was and what is still there can never be taken away never be crushed or confined into a little box by reality.


Here I am
standing in the doorway to my den
wondering what's going to happen next!
Elvis is sinning,
he's trying distract me
from the coma I have fallen in!

tell me how do I say this?
Hid my heart
to what my eyes
had to see
so I never had to be me!

Tell me why
You never even tried
never even tried
to be me
so tell me why
you never even cried
never even tried
to be me

Here I am
Standing in the
he's trying distract me
from the coma I have fallen in
tell me how do I say this
Hid my heart
to what my eyes
had to see
so I never had to be me!

Tell me why
You never even tried
never even tried
to be me
so tell me why
you never even cried
never even tried
to be me
My Hearts broken

So I never had to be me
so tell me why
You never even tried
never even tried
to be me
so tell me why
you never even cried
never even tried
to be me
My Hearts broken!